i think i think too much.

please disregard rambling & sentences that don't make any sense. thanks.

i just finished watching the help.

heaven knows, i'm a crier. always have been. i went through this stage that started in the middle of my freshman year of high school and lasted until my sophomore year where my emotions were dry. nothing made me cry. i feel like it was just myself toughening up for a major move to a new state. i was so ready to start over. around march of my sophomore year, some things happened & i went through some major growing up. then, overnight, it was like i reverted back to my eleven year old self, and random events would make the tears run down my face. maybe its because i'm a tender soul. maybe its because i'm a hormonal seventeen year old girl. maybe its just because i'm a crier & always have & always will be. 

anyways, the help. the story of the black hired help (the maids) in jim crow mississippi. its heart wrenching and beautiful & eye opening. these black women literally raised generation after generation of little white boys and girls who grew up believing they were their real mamas. in all reality, their birth mothers were in the next room over drinking expensive gin & playing bridge with the other members of high social society. over & over, the black maid repeats to her adopted white children: you is kind. you is smart. you is important. because really, who is going to teach you to become an acceptable human being if your own mother won't? or can't? gah. my eyes are filling up with tears as i type this. in the final scene of the movie, as a young girls black maid, Aibileen, is leaving after a nasty fallout with the girl's mother, Aibileen reminds her that she is worth rubies.

"baby, do you remember what i told you?"

"you is kind. you is smart. you is important."

"now baby you must always remember that, even when i'm not here."

oh gosh. this is ridiculous. i'm bawling just thinking about it. i'm five years old sometimes, its fine.

this is the scene when Aibileen teaches her girl just how valuable she is.

so. 

the main point i'm trying to get across.

this movie is amazing. please go watch it. i've always had a soft spot in my heart for life lessons & southern black civil rights movements. you'll cry too. actually, you probably won't. you'll just think of me bawling like a child every time you watch it. 

night :)

jess.

ps. it snowed like, 1/16th of an inch last night. its a good start.

pss. i'm not throwing up anymore. tmi? yeah probably. sorry.