&you don't know how to say it.

those times when you're trying to explain to your best friend
how you feel
and you thought you got it across,
but all they say is
"like, what do you mean?"

this is what i mean.

its sad when people you know become people you knew.
when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life.
how you used to be able to talk to them for hours, and now,
you can barely even look at them.

it happens. it does.

but today
even though i don't explain things well to them (ha)
i'm thankful for my friends.& 
for nate, who always has a running analogy for everything he says.
and if its not running, its pasta.
for kaitlyn, who knows when to rub your back and say "its okay."
for summer, who is incredibly hysterical and gets me in trouble
for being irreverent during church...
for chas, who can spit out song lyrics like no one's business.
&for mallory, who can always tell when i need a hug and a "jess, i love you!"

because no man is an island.
we need people to interact with.
because people hurt& people heal.
its just how it is.

grateful for the knowledge that even though we might walk on paths
strewn with pebbles that may hurt our feet,
Christ has walked the stoniest path of all.
he's only a prayer away.
he's real, &i know it.

&thats my rant for the day.
(i could go on, but my foot fell asleep.)


loves,
jessica :)

liquid confidence.

via pinterest.com, obviously.

i been thinkin' about this.

i'm the type who thinks makeup should enhance your natural beauty,

not cover it up.

believe me, 

i'm not the prettiest or skinniest or most outgoing, 

but i've got this thing called self confidence. 

and i don't feel like i need to use my face or body to get attention.

on another note.

last night.

midnight premiere of sherlock holmes two.

with kaitlyn, christina, landon, garrett, cardston and corey. 

my friends are so strange sometimes.

"those bathrooms are freaking huge."

"that buttery flavor? its actually not butter."

"can i palpate your knee area?"

anyways. there'll be pictures to come. 

but for now.

a song.

appropriately titled: liquid confidence (nothing to lose) by you me at six.

cheers to the freakin' weekend.

loves, 

jess. :)

je m'manque.

this week i missed many things. clean showers. the horses. (ohhh! oscar, the pretty palomino, is the newest and probably final additon to our herd.)... [oh. and zack, kait and i at the harry potter premier.] & sunny weather. next week i'll miss different things. a break from stall cleaning. the only place on earth you connect with people in a week the same way you would otherwise in months. i'm back from efy, and it was amazing.