them days.

its one of them days.

those days when mother nature decides to wreak havoc on your lower abdomen and your mom has to call you out from school so you can take four advil and wallow in self pity whilst eating chocolate and drinking crystal light.

one of those days when you listen to the playlist on your ipod titled "i be ragin'". i'm convince we should all have one of those playlists.

one of those days when nothing seems to be going right.

those days when you have to work right after school but really all you want to do is put sweats on and cry for no reason.

those days when you didn't do any of your homework. 

yep.

but this made me laugh. so its all good.

and that's all.

it.hasn't.hit.me.yet.

‎senior year is unlike any other. 

here are a few things you should know.. 

it won't hit you when you wake up for your last first day of school. 

it won't hit you as you walk into the senior locker bay for the first time as an official senior. 

it won't hit you when you cheer at your last homecoming pep rally and attend your last football game. 

it won't hit you as you go to your last homecoming dance and realize prom is way better without the lower classmen and the dj.

 it won't hit you as you enter the floor to perform at state for the last time. 

it won't hit you as you fill out the countless college applications. 

it won't hit you as you write that generic essay letter that you try to use for all your apps. 

it won't hit you as your college friends return for Christmas break and give you all their advice. 

it won't hit you as you celebrate new year's with the friends you have known since childhood. 

it won't hit you when you cheer at your last senior night and cry your eyes out. 

you won't feel it when you are having the time of your life at your last spring break. 

you don't realize it during senior skip day. 

when may finally comes around and you realize that it is your last prom, but you don't really feel it when you are there having the time of your life. 

you begin to realize it at graduation when you look around and realize that you will never see half of these people again. 

you will begin to see it more over the summer when everyone is getting their roommates, class schedules, and going to orientation. 

it still hasn't fully hit you when you are sitting in your room packing up the past 18 years of your life, laughing with your best friend about all the stupid stuff you've done. 

you might feel it the morning you leave for college as that it is the last time you will see your room, your parents, and your best friend for like 3 months. 

it will finally hit you when you are sitting in your dorm room with a perfect stranger, that you have to live with for the next year. 

please, please, PLEASE make every moment of your senior year count, you only get to do it once. 

college will be a lot of fun, but in the meantime, jump at every opportunity you get to do anything that you have ever wanted to do. 

spend as much time with friends as possible, for it will not be long until you meet new people and inevitably grow apart.

so here's to the seniors of 2012. 

only five months left. 

ha. and you thought it was wednesday.

i definitely got out of bed this morning and thought it was wednesday.

false. tis tuesday.

and i find that disappointing.

there's something wrong here. 

well, two things. 

really really wrong. 

one: the week is not even two days gone and i'm ready to lounge around all day in my jammies. 

two: i'm sitting at the computer to do my homework and its not even 4:00. whaaat?

and this would be me skipping second period. 

hey don't worry. 

i'm just really really pretty sometimes. 

haha. 

i love only going to two periods of school.

and then hearing our song on the radio.

three times. 

then putting my ipod on shuffle, 

and having it come on again.

i think i'll make some paper chains.

one counting down until graduation,

the other till christmas.

and another one until the first day of college.

maybe another one until my eighteenth birthday? 

that sounds nice. 

have a lovely tuesday.

loves, 

jessica.

currently...

listening

i don't want this night to end luke bryan

we owned the night lady antebellum

without you david guetta

we found love rihanna

when we stand together nickleback

wearing

ah, senior year. 
you've been good to me so far.
the way you move is like a full on rainstorm...
state football tonight at bronco stadium,
with some celebration after.
hopefully.
you got your hands up, you're rockin' in my truck...
i love me some mustang boys.
and country music.
we wear camo, green and black to our games.
its snowing outside? yes.
i'm skipping school? double yes.
(don't worry. i asked my mom first.)
kathy in t(minus)one day. 
i'm set on cruise control, i'm slowly losin' hold...
i'm good with a 3.7 gpa.
colleges are applied to,
basketball season is beginning.
life? yeah i kinda like it. :)

insert a smile here.

i don't know that i've ever laughed so hard in my entire life

as i did yesterday.

no one knows quite how to put a smile on my face like he does.

we're polar opposites.

and

we get along famously.

he holds my hand and kisses my forehead goodnight.

don't let the pictures deceive, 

i'm standing two stairs higher than he is. 

he's only a foot taller than me. 

we go together rather well. 

nbd.

thanks nate :)

some randoms.

because randoms are the best. 

see that "join this site" button over there? yeah, that one. 

click it. you won't regret it.

i dig crisp fall mornings. 

daylight savings time.

&nate and i. 

i'd like oh, four new scarves please. 

thank you.

i like kissing. what?

i love having friends with cute clothes. 

it multiplies your wardrobe by like a bazillion articles of clothing. 

its great. 

i love football. 

especially when its cold outside.

katherine grace aughenbaugh will be here in eight days. aaaaaahhhhh.

tomorrow will be perfect. i'm convinced.

how could it not? 

today, i'm thankful to be 5foot3inches tall, 

with green eyes and blonde hair.

my heart's a stereo, it beats for you so listen slow, hear my thoughts in every note, oh oh.

oh and also for good english teachers.

can tomorrow get here already please?

11.11.11

i'm feeling good.

loves, 

jessica.

what you see is misleading in some cases.

in most cases, tanner is a good kid.

good student, great athlete, etc. etc.

there's exceptions to every rule.

take today in english for example.

tanner is usually asleep snoring in the back corner with his feet on the chair in front of him.

but not today.

the usually sleepy mr. mangum was being filmed by none other than espn elite 11 sports center.

so, he sat up front in the middle, with a gatorade bottle perched on the corner of his desk, school work spread out on his desk.

they fixed his hair and adjusted his nike jacket.

the best part was in a filming break and he leaned over and said "jess, i just want to go to sleep now."

bahah. 

nonetheless,

truly a misrepresentation.

it reinforced the idea that the media can skew things any way they please.

don't worry tanner. 

i still love you.

and good luck tonight at the playoff game against lake city.

go mustangs. :)

jessica. 

ap government has turned my brain to mush.

i laugh at these.

my heart's a stereo.

i've been gone, i know.

life has been completely insane.

homecoming, life, school, college applications,

boys, boys, different boys, football boys,

football games,

powderpuff,

new friends and old friends,

working, guitar, working, horses.

etc. etc.

my friends are all getting mission calls. i feel old.

i'm trying to convince the guys that febreeze does NOT make your pads or truck smell better after football. no.

i've started teaching guitar and picked up the photography bug.

i decided i love love taking people's pictures!

school is hard, but i knew it would be.

i seriously have the best friends i could ever ask for.

music has been great lately too.

summer makes me laugh on a daily basis.

s: "she's rude, a drama queen, has weird style that she thinks is super great, is always hormonal, and kisses gross people, but i still want to be friends with her."

j: "did you just hear what came out of your mouth?"

s: "ridiculous, i know. don't be hatin'."

crazy women. :)

lunch trips to sam's, summer's, julie's, & bethany's.

racing the boys to the popcorn in mr. gural's calc class.

it's become a rather large women's rights joke.

"raw meat only attracts dogs."

crazy girl, don't you know that i love you.

random photoshoots in random rainstorms.

chas hit the curves ahead sign in his yellow truck.

a week later, the garbage man hit the same sign.

fall leaves.

cute jackets.

love is in the air.

again.

jessica :)

(the poor sign. hahaha.)

oh ryan. i love him.

makes me wanna take a backroad.

the first two weeks of school have been blissfully great.

my schedule is perfect. late start, seminary, and photography.

ap calc, ap english, ap government, ap econ, hon chem.

no big deal. 

the field by the school is stacking their wheat. 

its beautiful, so i had to stop and take a picture.

we won our football game friday [!!!!]

and bsu won theirs saturday. [!!!!]

the weather is still in the upper 80's low 90's,

but the mornings have a yummy crispness that only comes in fall.

my birthday is next week. 

according to parker, its the sexy seventeenth that counts. 

haha. 

new favorite song.

remind me by brad paisley and carrie underwood.

or, 

long hot summer by keith urban.

i can't choose.

or maybe lighters by bruno mars...

whoever invented favorites of everything is dumb.

loves, 

jessica :)

and stay down there, son.

oh yes, we did.

terror.

jason's face says "oooohhhh no no no no i can't drop it aaaaaahhhhh!"

ha.

priceless.

the boys are back for the last time.

(oh hey. remember tanner? he's number two of the elite 11, and a nike posterboy, and he plays for my school. jealous? thought so.)

i drive up to the stadium to coach pete's voice screaming at the boys.

there ain't no walkin' on a football field! no sir!

one more time, sullivan!

git up there! still can't see your hands, fool!

after three grueling hours of literal blood, sweat and many, many tears, they still lift their feet high enough to step over the tires.

they still run fast enough to sprint a 4.6 40 meter.

there is a reason we're the best.

after 2 months of hardcore conditioning,

its football season.

he's getting old.

ryan, i mean.

not the dogs. ha.

he can beat me when we squabble, and is several inches taller than me.

he's going to the high school with me next year.

i'm excited.

nervous.

worried.

blown away.

excited.

it'll be great.

you know how it is.

sometimes summer tastes like neapolitan ice cream and hot fudge while laying in the hammock.

i decided that dermatone chapstick and peppermint gum go together quite well.

the horses have got huge grass bellies from all the green stuff outside.

the ducks aren't babies anymore, and they're really loud.

job searching is the worst.

chickens are terrible. especially when they all run towards you at once.

i'm applying for college soon.

i only have one day of school left.

history club, key club, and bpa is awaiting me, along with my online classes.

i want to do a giveaway.

but i don't know what to put in it.

what would your ideal giveaway contain?

i need ideas.

and who knows, you might just win it.

(keep it in a good price range. haha.)

i'm less stressed than i was two weeks ago.

technically... that's not true.

ha. but i did find the joy of online classes!

you know that D in calc that's screwing over my gpa?

well i'm going to take an online class this summer that will replace, that's right, replace, my D on my transcripts with hopefully an A.

i'm feeling preetty daarrn gooood. :)

felicity.

felicity.

fe·lic·i·ty

[fi-lis-i-tee]

–noun1.

the state of being happy, especially in a high degree; bliss.

i'm in the mood to make a felicity list.

i love this word, it embodies everything that makes me happy.

• summer weather.
• cute dresses. especially this one.
• spring cardigans.
• green grass.
• reading outside in seminary.
• d&c section 6.
• when butterscotch is a good girl.
• clean stalls.
• clean rooms.
• clean bathrooms.
• "i do" by colbie callait.
• colorful sunsets.
• good books.
• when grandma stays for a few days. [that totally rhymed]
• natali's 10th birthday is tomorrow.
• the world is still here.
• beginning to get my summer tan on.
• scheduling senior pictures.
• senior pictures of my graduating friends.
• the freshness of the air at 7:00 in the morning.
• it's almost june?
• seminary graduation last night makes me glad i don't skip.
• next year, school starts at 8:00. yeeesssss.
• cousins are visiting soon.
• strawberry cream pie.
• midnight pomegranate.
• chocolate eggs left over from easter.
• a brand new pack of markers.
• a car full of gas.
• 2-for-5 flip flops at old navy.
• tacos and other such warm weather food.
• vice president in history club and potentially bpa next year.
• cabins in the mountains.
• a good long sleep.

whooo that got to be a long list. needless to say, despite my D in calculus i'm in a good mood. its really, really sad that i'm planning on taking summer school to retake this class. but really what's a couple weeks of summer for an A? bleeeech. whatevs. i always was proud that i was a smart kid. i wonder if this is a lesson in humility? i really hope not, it's a little humiliating.

anyways, i'm really glad that video touched you guys like it did me. i really feel like this is the best video they've ever made. it is so personal to every high school student and come on, we can all do what that kid did. he was able to bring someone unto christ purely because of his example on the sports teams that he was on. it's not hard. sometimes i clam up and forget everything i've learned in the past 17 years of church, but know what? i put that barrier on myself. there are people that i know need to hear what i know, and i know that you know people that need to know, even if you live in mormon central, utah, usa. enough with my spitting out everything that is popping into my head. [p.s. i like someone in a major sort of way. maybe more later?]

have a great day. as kaitlyn says, remember who you are and make good choices. and as my momma says, be helpful, respectful, kind and calm.

peace out.

j-dubb. :)

oh and one more thing.

go make your own felicity list.

it'll make you feel great.

promise.

kudos to you if you read all the way down here.

i'm in the mood for a lotion that smells like coconut tanning spray or some other yummy concoction. what are your favorites?

today...

was an up and down sort of day.

up. wore a new outfit.

down. woke up real late.

up. got to school on time

down. had a history test.

up. went to lunch with collette.

down. it was senior skip day.

up. i got a front row parking spot.

down. in my haste to leave after school, i forgot my mandatory AP meeting. brilliant.

up. i wrote kind notes in seminary to summer, connor and john.

down. my biology project that i've been procrastinating on is due in two days.

up. michelle made deviled eggs and cut up watermelon.

down. i'm not allowed to eat at the computer where i'm typing my bio project.

have a great day with only "ups."

loves,

jessica.

right now.

is april, the sun is shining, i got new chapstick, and i just got back from a

two-and-a-stinkin'-half-hour study session.

on a side note.

boy am i sure glad i know where i'm going in life.

today i was subjected to a girl in my math class' rave about how great

her ncmo was yesterday. (noncommittal makeout)

(um yes... my life does center around math. thanks for asking.)

eew.

besides the fact that you're a great lds girl (at least i thought you were until today)

i don't want to know about how well this kid exchanged spit with you for an hour. this kid wasn't even attractive. at all. at all. at all.

and so, girl-who-likes-to-make-out-with-ugly-boys,

please keep your stories to yourself.

thanks.

on a happier note...

tomorrow for mutual the eagle laurels are having a date with the kuna boys.

now, they are attractive.

i also have a dentist and hair appointment... not at the same time

or with the same person of course.

i'm thinking of going really blond.

:)

jessica